The Vacuum of Sadness

According my calculations, life is pretty hard. I’ve always tried to be positive, I tried my best, but honestly what I’ve learnt is that you don’t always stay on the same path, you trip, you fall but honestly you rise too and life is all about that. It’s about changing paths, falling, getting up and going on and believes me one day you’ll reach your destination.

What I’ve learnt is that sadness, isn’t option, you can’t really quit on it, it’ll come and make you feel so bad and there is this vacuum created inside you by it, it sucks in all your energy, all your positivity and you start feeling empty and that’s pretty obvious as the vacuum sucks in everything. I can say the same happened to me and honestly that feeling of emptiness and the feeling of nothingness hurts more than feeling a bunch of stuff.

I’ve had nights laying on my bed, staring the ceiling and feeling nothing but just a vacuum sucking everything, and some nights I would cry but the reason or the back end story of it would be nothing, I’d just want the vacuum to leave within inside of me. I’d want to translate my feelings but I was unable to, the pain inside me was growing and I didn’t want to feel like that anymore.

So, I heard myself, I looked out for the things, the company, and the activities that made me truly happy and where I knew I was around a positive field. I did my best and I still am doing my best to slowly and gradually fill the vacuum with all the little things, fill it with joy, I know it is hard but start with choosing a company with no negative vibes, I did and It makes things better, step your game up with maybe a new haircut and slowly find the thing that make you happy, for example gardening or baking or writing or making memes even.

If you let the vacuum inside yourself for too long it might leave you with nothing, but it’s never too late to catch a breath and decide whether you want this vacuum or you want to get rid of it, one more thing that I would state is that this vacuum or sadness isn’t a choice, it might come but getting rid of it is a choice.

I hope everyone with a similar vacuum gets rid of it and finds a path to joy. You might trip but you’ll stand again and every time stronger. <3